So I have been thinking about this for a while and I realize that it might be time to let go...
I always thought about it but never had the courage to leave because this account was what drove me to get my tablet and join digital art. As well, I got to join the utau & vocaloid fandom and meet lots of friends.
But, this account, has in fact lost it's purpose a while ago. In fact, I don't know it it really had a purpose to begin with.
I made this account when I was 15 and had no experience with any online community... so the account was mainly to spam people with my ugly art...
As I stayed, I realize I seek something in art. It took me a while but I have summarized all my artistic dreams into two goals. Both of which, can't be achieved here.
Because I seek a more professional approach where no one in real life knows me and no one sucks up to be my friend for free art.
So this account will be 'dead'... I didn't want to delete it because my childish artworks here... I still spend a lot of time on them...
As of now, I will still be active on my other deviantart account, my youtube (rarely), my twitter, and my tumblr.
But to be honest here, they will all be deleted one day... when I am ready to strive for my goals... because at this moment, I still don't believe I am good enough. And when I do, I want to start clean.
Maybe you will find me again one day ^^ but there is no way to know.